MY HEART IS SMILING AGAIN..=)

i don't feel well.. i'm aching physically.. "MAKULUGUN..Huhuhuh".. i just wanna cry but it won't do me any good..my right ear is swollen..you can't see it b'coz it's inside. i feel like my ear is throbbing and ringing so bad..hai..when i'm in school, nobody can really notice because i don't show them that i'm in pain.. only kha2 knows..one of my best buds., i've taken medicines just as the doctor prescribed and i hope it would heal soon..good thing i can still hear clearly.,

..i feel so weak but i know God won't leave me and will give me strength always.,i must be strong..God is the greatest healer..i'm happy because i'm only aching physically..i'm no longer aching emotionally.. i have move on.hai naku..boys lang yan..haha i have really learned so many things when it comes to love and every time i fall, i learn to stand up. i like the song invincible with the lyrics, "i was damaged by the fall, got the wind knocked out of me.,to be strong and beautiful.,i must be INVINCIBLE.," =)

...i value LOVE so much..love from God of course, love from my loved ones, friends..and the one that makes you smile for no reason at all and makes your eyes dreamy..corny much..hehe but hey, it's true. well, i've experienced that before. it does feel good to be in love and when i love, i love seriously.,i am NOT a playgirl.,when i love somebody, i really do. i don't give false hope and i don't ever want to hurt the guy.,honestly, i have loved twice in my life.,and i am always the one being left.ouch! i am always left hanging in thin air, broken.. maybe some would say it's just infatuation and maybe you're right..as young as i am right now, i haven't experienced all the things about love in this world and i am far way from being expert when it comes to this matter.,i know i am not a perfect girl..never will i be perfect but my love is true. i always want to be true.. some people think that i'm so lucky because the guys i like also like me or i can get whatever i want in life..some say i have many admirers..(i am not boasting about anything.i'm just being real..)but you know what?? what's the use of having all these if the one you really love can't love you back or always takes you for granted? why is it that everytime i love, i always get hurt? i know that hurts are part of loving but it's just too much..

..maybe no guy really understands me..
..maybe no guy is really willing to wait for me..
..maybe i trust too much..
..maybe they just can't accept my whole self..

..i am 100 percent sure that God wants what's best for me. He has a love story for me that will sweep me off my feet..hehe i am willing to wait for that right time. from now on, i would treat all the guys i meet as my friends and brothers and nothing more.,=)


***my HEART has learned and will be back to its number 1 rule: NEVER EVER TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN..and this time, i'm determined to follow it and live it.,=)***